081310

kyou wa hachi-gatsu jusan-nichi no kinyobi desu! 

Kunbanwa minna-san! I haven’t posted in a while. I’ve been busy with college an all. I have one last midterm exam on tuesday and it’s algebra. Aish! I’m totally trying not to think about sucking at math. The secret is to THINK POSTIVE and FEEL GOOD. That’s all I have to focus on and it’ll all be great.

I haven’t made a single lecture note about psych class and yet I know that I remember everything we’ve discussed. My prof is really great ^^. LOVE WHAT YOU DO AND DO WHAT YOU LOVE. Yup, that’s totally right! When you don’t get forced to do something it seems easier and more fun to do stuff. Ehem, ehem. LOLZ…
Of course I still remember…it continues to haunt me til this day.

LOLZ so I walk into my aunt’s room and saw those sunglasses… sshh! she doesn’t know…i was looking for the fake glasses but instead i saw the sunglasses so…

I don’t know what to write. sorry I’m still a bit preoccupied with the things I studied this week 
and that song we made up in nihongo class keeps on ringing in my head
♫ nichiyobi, getsuyobi, kayobi, suiyobi, mokuyobi, kinyobi, dayobi ♫
numbers and the calendar sure are hard to memorize… but i’ll be learn all the basic soon! i won’t stop studying until I’m fluent!

Nihon wa muzokashii desu!

hmm i need to memorize adjectives and other words now…

YESSS!!! I was here >>>

see? i got stamped lolz 0.o

Got to spend the day with Clover-chan!

Okay so the day went like this. Clover and I met up along with my block mate Ahj (Shinee fan). Then we took a taxi to SM Megamall since the event was held there. We got there real early and the mall hasn’t even opened up yet. It was on the fifth floor at megatrade hall 1.

There weren’t that many stalls but we did buy some merchandise like my Big Bang shirt and those domo accessories hehe. I plan to pin them on my vest  Then there was a contest and the prize was an autographed poster of 2pm! Yeah I wanted it. The question was EASY. I raised my hand but gave up, haha. What do I have against a guy with a huge paw on his right hand??? And so the guy with the Bo peep paw won. We even passed by him a couple of times. I swear I almost wanted to buy the poster from him. It was autographed damn it! Chansung’s writing is on it and I was this close =.= I thought they also raffled an autographed album. Guess not. It was tiring to go around. We only lasted about 2 hours or so. There were too many people that SM management had to stopped the selling of tickets to more people wanting to come in. Too bad for them. Good thing we came super early.

The funny part of the event was when they started showing music videos on the projector and everyone gathered. Not just that, people went crazy as if the bands were there and all. LOLZ. It was so amusing for me to look at. I mean, HELLO? Like they don’t do that at their own houses when they see the videos in private? There was too much fangirling for artists who aren’t even there. People were dancing and I could feel the ground shaking. Take note we were on the fifth floor so… they had to warn the organizers to to be cautious since the glass panels at the lower floors might break or something.

The host was amusing too. He’s Korean but I guess he lives here now.

And there was also this instance when we were looking at magazines and a copy of Toma Ikuta’s An-An cover was there. LOLZ. Clover saw it. Why do I always see that mag?

Hmmm what else? I dunno what to write now…
Till next time! ♥

07.17.10

YESTERDAY WAS A VERY MEMORABLE DAY IN MY COLLEGE LIFE. I DON’T THINK I”LL EVER FORGET IT. A DAY INCLUSIVE OF A SHOCKING REVELATION. OKAY, SO IT’S NOT SUCH A BIG THING BUT I MEAN HOW COULD WE HAVE NOT KNOWN ALL ALONG? YESTERDAY OUR BLOCK FOUND OUT THAT MY PYSCH PROF IS ACTUALLY GAY. GAY AS IN HOMO AND ALL THAT SHIT. I THOUGHT IT WAS AWESOME. ONE GIRL EVEN SAID “OH MY GOD THAT’S SO COOL”. LOLZ I THOUGHT SO TOO. ANYWAY IN THAT PLACE HOMOSEXUALITY SORT OF BECOMES PART OF THE NORMS. I MEAN NO ONE IS SURPRISED IF THIS PERSON OR THAT ONE YOU JUST PASSED BY IN THE CORRIDOR OR EVEN YOUR SEATMATE IS ACTUALLY GAY.I’VE ALWAYS ACCEPTED THE GAY CULTURE BUT WHEN IT SEEMS THAT EVERYONE AROUND IS GAY, MAYBE IT’S A BIT TOO MUCH. I GUESS IT’S REALLY IMPORTANT TO KNOW WHO YOU ARE AND TO KNOW YOUR BOUNDARIES. AND SO GOES THE SAYING OF MY PYSCH PROF “YOUR LIFE IS YOUR OWN RESPONSIBILITY”. WHICH IS SO TRUE BY THE WAY. HE’S REALLY AWESOME AND I CAN’T BELIEVE I DIDN’T DOUBT HIM. IT WASN’T OBVIOUS AT ALL. EVERYONE ALREADY KNEW THAT FACT, ALTHOUGH UNFORTUNATELY OUR BLOCK WAS OBLIVIOUS TO IT. NO WONDER HE’S SO INTELLIGENT AND ARTICULATE. IF YOU OBSERVE ALMOST ALL GAY PEOPLE ARE LIKE THAT. THEY’RE SO KNOWLEDGEABLE AND ARE GOOD TALKERS THEY COULD PROABLY JUSTIFY ANY SITUATION. HE HAS A GREAT LIFE STORY AS WELL. BUT I GUESS EVERYONE DOES. IT JUST DEPENDS ON HOW YOU SEE IT. I MEAN DURING THE TIME WHEN YOU’RE GOING THROUGH ADVERSITIES, YOU MAY THINK YOUR LIFE SUCKS BUT ONCE YOU GET OVER IT AND LOOK BACK YOU REALIZE IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL LIFE AFTER ALL  I THINK THE SATISFACTION IS FAR GREATER WHEN YOU WORK HARD FOR SOMETHING. THAT’S JUST HOW I WANT TO SEE MY LIFE SOMEDAY. I DON’T WANT TO THINK IT’S WASTE AT ALL. I’M KEEPING THIS JOURNAL AND WILL WRITE WHATEVER THOUGHTS OR FEELINGS I HAVE DURING THESE MOMENTS AND WHEN I GET TO READ THESE AGAIN I’LL PROBABLY SMILE AND THINK HOW IMMATURE I WAS TO BE SO UNGRATEFUL AND NARROW-MINDED. IN PSYCH THERE ARE 5 LEVELS IN MORAL THINKING AND REASONING. NOT EVERYONE REACHES LEVEL 5 WHICH IS THE HIGHEST BUT I WANT TO BE ABLE TO REACH THAT  THERE ARE LOTS OF POSSIBILITIES AND ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN. BUT I DO BELIEVE THAT THINGS DON’T JUST HAPPEN. THEY HAPPEN BECAUSE YOU LET THEM. WHATEVER STEP WE TAKE, WE ARE ACCOUNTABLE FOR.

ONE THING’S FOR SURE WE ♥ SIR MOTILLA  D
YOU CANNOT ESCAPE WHO ARE. LIKE THE SUNFLOWER THAT FACES THE SUN REGARDLESS. EVEN IF YOU TRY AND TURN IT THE OTHER WAY, IT ALWAYS COMES BACK FACES TO WHERE IT IS ORIENTED. ACCEPTANCE IS A GREAT THING. IT BREAKS THE BARRIER THAT HINDERS PEOPLE TO PURSUE THEIR DREAMS. IF GOD DOESN’T JUDGE PEOPLE, THEN NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO JUDGE OTHERS.UGH. I AM REMINDED AGAIN OF THAT HORRID VIDEO WE WATCHED IN CLASS. SURE THERE IS BEAUTY IN THE FORMATION OF A NEW LIFE BUT MUST I BEAR WITNESS TO THAT? MUST I SEE A WOMAN GIVE BIRTH WITH THE CAMERA FOCUSED PRECISELY ON THE BABY COMING OUT AND ALL THAT SHIT? I FEEL WOBBLY AND WEAK JUST THINKING ABOUT IT. IF THERE’S ONE THING… ONE THING… T.T HOW SCARY.

FROM THAT THE TOPIC JUMPED TO SEXUAL ORIENTATION AND SUCH. LIKE HOW TO DETERMINE IF YOU’RE REALLY A HOMO OR IF YOU’RE JUST CONFUSED, THERE ARE TWO FACTORS. ONE IS IF YOU’RE JUST ATTRACTED TO THE PERSON OF THE SAME SEX EMOTIONALLY AND SITUATIONS LIKE CONSTANTLY THINKING ABOUT THAT PERSON AND WANTING TO BE WITH THAT PERSON, THEN THAT’S NOTHING BUT FRIENDSHIP (PROBABLY A BEST FRIEND TYPE OF BOND). IN THE CASE WHERE YOU ARE JUST SEXUALLY ATTRACTED TO THE PERSON, WELL THAT’S NOT GOOD AND THAT MAKES YOU A MANIAC LOLZ =.= BUT IN THE CASE WHERE YOU ARE BOTH ATTRACTED EMOTIONALLY AND SEXUALLY, THEN IT’S POSITIVE. NONETHELESS, THERE ARE OTHER FACTORS WHICH CAUSES A PERSON TO FEEL THAT WAY. IT COULD JUST BE CONFUSION AND THE WAY TO FIGURE IT OUT IS TO EXPERIMENT. YEAH, LIKE TRY BOTH RELATIONSHIPS AND SEE WHICH YOU PREFER.

SO THAT’S WHAT HAPPENED. 0.o
OOOH I ALMOST FORGOT THE CHI SERIES I MADE 

There’s more but something’s wrong with LJ >.<

Alas I finally figured out how to make these 0.o

My first batch of GIFs made about a week ago. These are just sooo funny. I enjoyed making them so much 

lolz showdown 

i saw this and i just HAD to learn myself

brave sound, brave sound

junho-ssi

shake it high kick boy!

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chanana's abs

07.02.2010

“So no matter how we part…I still believe there was a reason why we met.”

Today is the 2nd of July. My birthday is 24 days away and I’ll be a year older. I’ve no problem with getting older. The only thing that sucks is that I’m not gonna get any taller anymore. I’m only somewhere between 5’4 and 5’5… I think. The good thing is that I exceeded the average height for us Filipinos which is 5’2 (women) but I’m still not tall enough! My goal was to grow at least up to 5’7 T.T That didn’t happen and it can’t happen anymore. It really sucks, although I’m already taller than most people here anyway XP

watch

71~Into The Fire, ladies and gentlemen XD I wanna watch this so bad. In fact I wanna watch this more than I wanna watch Eclipse. I think my grandpa would love this movie. It’s a war movie and he loves those stuff. Aside from the fact that TOP is in this movie, it also has a great storyline. It was based on the events during the Korean war, focusing mainly on the 71 student soldiers who tried to defend South Korea from North Korea. It’s historical. It’s a war movie. It has TOP in it ^^

Korea makes the best movies this time around. Actually, Korea is very successful now. They’re even a part of the World Cup XD I wonder when my country will become like that. We have a new president now but I think it takes more than just 6 years to make such a great leap from being a third world to a first world country. A slowly progressing country wouldn’t be so bad either. I hope when I graduate there would at least be a difference.

I haven’t posted in so long. There are so many things to study and I get home from college feeling very drained T.T We don’t even have projects yet but it’s really exhausting and disorienting. I have to read complex stuff everyday. It’s so nice to learn these things though. Just like what Adam Levine said “You get jaded but you like it.” It’s not only that, I think what drains my energy the most is trying to fit in with others. I’ve never tried so hard in my entire life. HAHA. What saddens me is that, it’s not consistent. Sometimes I’m happy going with the flow and trying to have fun with them and sometimes I just feel like no one gets me. I even get the feeling I’m not wanted…it’s paranoia, I know. I want to go home when I’m there but I feel I have to be there. I know I plan to transfer schools but there’s something that’s keeping me there. It’s probably my ambition.

In other news…

He makes me smile stupidly^ ^

Chansung the highkick idol HAHA (but yeah he’s good at taekwondo and kendo 

Chansung spaces out in places he shouldn’t^ ^ I do that too when I ride a public vehicle off to somewhere, especially the time when I take the LRT hoe. LOLZ I know it’s not good to do that since I might miss the stops and it’s not safe especially on jeepneys or buses but I can’t help it XD VOICE CRACK! adorable♥♥♥

…i’m gonna be okay (gonna be okay) i’ll be okay (gotta be okay) baby without u (without u)….

06.11.2010

Finally my first week in college has passed. It’s sad though because we’re about to get serious with lessons and such starting next week. I can’t believe it. It was only orientation week and I’m so freakin’ tired already. I’ve never walked from the farthest end of a building up to the other wing or another building and back. I think I’m mostly tired from all the walking and in heels nonetheless. HAHA. My heels aren’t even that high and pointed but damn it feels like torture. LOL. Anyway we can wear flats too so I think I’ll buy one as an alternative. Things went well during the first four days. I think my blockmates are nice and friendly. So far I haven’t seen nor felt anything negative about them…yet. My professors aren’t so bad either. Good thing I don’t really suffer from nervous breakdown or I’ll be dead for this semester. I hope I’ll be able to handle pressure. In my E-101 class (com skills) we’re supposed to have this free talk every meeting. Our prof is going to show a quote and pick a random student to give an impromptu speech about the quote. Great. Just great. Then our H-101 class (history) has this current events reporting every tuesday and we’re supposed to gather news and report one by one in class. We did that before when I was in grade school. Not such a bad thing. And the hardest of all is my gen psych class. I think that this time I’ll really have to do advance reading. Our prof said that every meeting is graded recitation day. (Great. Just what I needed to make me even more anxious) So we have this class card and he’s gonna shuffle it and pick one and ask the person a question. An upperclassman warned me beforehand that he’s nice but he likes to give graded recitation all the time. At least I wasn’t surprised when he announced that. But dang our psych book costs about 1000 and it looks just like an encyclopedia. Mind you that’s only an introduction to psychology. On a positive note I am rest assured that I’m in a good department. Our prof is a graduate of Ateneo…so…yeah! It’s like getting the same quality education from my dream school. Things are gonna be hard I can tell and when I get too jaded and down I’ll just think that the words Stanford university is flashing before my eyes. HAHA that’ll definitely keep me motivated.

So I inquired about the Nihongo lessons from our school’s language center and they said that it costs Php6000 for 36 hours. My grandma said it’s not that expensive. But money isn’t really the problem. I’ll have to wait and get used to my schedule and lessons before I take extra load. Anyway I won’t be alone since my friend is going to take lessons with me.

Today is Friday and every Friday we have a 3 hour beak after our second class. The cafeteria is always crowded with people so we agreed to go to Eastwood City instead and eat there. We hanged out for an hour and a half and then went back to school. It was fun. I make an effort to come with my new blockmates so I can become good friends with them.

One must seize one’s opportunities  D

Cassisxxx