it'll be my shiny armour...

Halloween isn’t even finished yet but now I’m just really excited for Christmas to come. I’ve never been this excited but when I saw this

I knew I had to have it for Christmas. Yeah, isn’t it beautiful? I know this one particular ring is too much to ask since it costs 350 USD and that it’s from Vivienne Westwood (which is a UK brand and artists like Nana Kitade have this ring). But I really wanna have one like it even though it’s not really from Vivienne Westwood.

Meegu-chan and I have been drooling over this ring for days now. Haha and then this plan came up in my mind. I’m gonna ask my mom to buy me a ring that is like it. I’m not hoping for a real armour ring by VW all I want is something that looks similar to it.

hey it's my life but why am i not taking a stand?

Once we were told that “we always have a choice”…i dunno if that “we” applies to me or anything but it seems like it doesn’t. Sometimes I just get forced to do something even though I really don’t want to and that sucks. But then again life sucks and then you die. But really, it is VERY annoying when people take control over you. It’s not fair and if you resist they find something to blackmail you. The question is always yes or not no? Heck, yeah that’s the kind of choice given! I just don’t like it when people force me. Can’t I volunteer on doing something and not get ordered to do it instead? I hate what I’m gonna do. I try to think of it positively but the real picture of it is very haunting. I HATE IT! Right now I may look like I’m willing and happy to do it but if you really know me,you would know that it’s killing me deep down. I am not and never will be happy of what stupid thing i am gonna do. I swear I won’t do it again. If i make a fool of myself onstage on the 24th then all hell will break lose and i’ll never forgive the people who made me do it. The only good thing i’m getting from this are the clothes that i’m supposed to wear and even that is giving me a hard time. Plus i am not comfortable with the whole thing.

not in the mood…

seriously i am not in the mood to write anything at all…and i’m also too lazy to write the conclusion part for my classmate’s oratorical piece….i could have done it earlier if she had given it to me days ago…and to think that the contest is this friday….haha and yeah i even forgot i joined the literary quiz bee which is on wednesday LOL!! haha well i won’t study anyways even if i remembered it earlier…haha i only study on the day it will take place…haha..

now isn’t it obvious i don’t have anything to write at all? i’m just ranting now so my friends will know i’m still alive…haha…

gotta have some more time to think…even though i always do…but this time it’s really serious stuff… i hate not having time to look at scans but i’m really not in the mood..even though that cheers me up…haha..

life is so dramatic i would wish for it to leave me alone…but i can’t so i won’t…haha!!

when it rains...

This day almost ended up almost too crappy for me but luckily classes got suspended because of the rain. Only we went home almost the same time as dismissal coz they let us go hours after suspension was announced. HAHA at least I escaped the practical test for basketball which I don’t really intend on learning how to play. I only play volleyball and I can’t even be great at it so what more with basketball? Plus I think the rules to that game are just difficult to understand. Either it is really difficult or I’m just not interested in learning. Every time we play basketball my friends and I think of ourselves as Bella for playing so horribly. HAHA yeah I’m admitting that I’m horrible at it! LOL! What I didn’t manage to escape was our quiz in science and lit. But I did manage to pass both even though I reviewed on such short notice. Oh yeah we almost had a quiz on social studies too! HAHA friday is quiz day..actually almost everyday we have quizzes.

Anyways, so we have a new seat plan and I am glad that Meegu is closer to me that before. HAHA although we had a minor problem coz there were others who wanted to sit beside each other even though they already had at least one friend beside them. That’s what sucks sometimes coz we can’t sit together with our friends coz we have a seat plan and sometimes the teacher requires the students not to sit with their peers. Unlike in schools abroad where the students can sit wherever they want.

Now I forgot what I was going to write next…oh well…this is all I guess…

LOL

Unsuccessful baking...

HAHA today was green day and by that I meant that I had to wear my Girl Scout uniform which I truly do not like. We call it green day because of the color of our GSP uniform. Also we baked vanilla pie (or whatever you call it) for three hours only to end up unsuccessful. HAHA too bad the pie didn’t get baked well enough for the liquid to solidify while in the oven. I seriously think there wasn’t anything wrong with the our procedure it was just the oven not being hot enough…LOL..this is the second time we ended up not liking the results. The last time we did refrigerated cake and still it didn’t harden while it was in the refrigerator. We wound up eating it while it was still somehow soft and and totally not presentable. Aside from that I didn’t like the taste so much. It was way too sweet only nice to eat at first but then the sweetness starts to overwhelm you. Although that last one was a little more successful that our recent baking activity which we haven’t tasted yet because no one from our group bothered to get. It’s funny coz I seriously think that we should stop attempting to make pies. Or maybe we should just use dough instead of crushed grahams. The previous year when we started baking we usually male the dough ourselves which turns out better results than this year’s baking. It’s really not that important to me since I would forget about the recipes as soon as we finished baking it anyways. I never did like cooking. My uncle wanted to teach me but I just wasn’t interested in learning. I am the type who can live on frozen food or would rather order or go out to eat.

During our GS activity we made pouch bags out of old pants. HAHA did they seriously think I was gonna sacrifice my own pants? I just took one of my cousin’s old ones which she totally never wore anyways. I didn’t even have to ask coz she wouldn’t really wear it even though I told her many times to wear it. So as not to put the pants to waste I just took it and made use of it since she won’t! HAHA! Anyways Meegu and I made a tiny pouch bag (but everyone else seems to think it’s a pencil case) with MYV sewn at the back of it. Well it totally looked like a poorly made school project but at least we tried.

Lastly, I’m trying to look for some good fanfics everywhere and even found a Jrock fanfic archive. I’ll keep looking for good ones and spend my time reading it.

Card day...

Well today was our card day and we all got our report cards for this trimester. My grades were fine and what I was dreading the most didn’t happen so I think I can still breathe (not totally live). Not that I think ths is so important to announce on my journal but really I’m just so happy that I won’t have to break any bad news to my parents. If only I wasn’t in the honor roll then I wouldn’t have to be so serious (as if I am) in my studies. It is good to be that way, to know what my responsibilities are but sometimes it just gets too tiring to keep on striving for something. Ok so am I getting melodramatic here? Oh no I won’t! That’s just one thing I don’t want….blah! DRAMA!

On a happier note, Meegu-chan, Rukia and me were happily ranting about jrock as always on one side of the classrom…hahaha we talked and got excited like crazy fangirls while Meegu and I told Rukia this very nice fanfic entitled “Blood Rain” that Meegu came across LJ. Haha I really liked that fic I praise the one who wrote it. Actually it was more like the a conicidence coz some things in the story are actually what I would like to happen in real life. Especially when Tora ans Uruha were friends and Uruha was this diabolical vampire and Ruki has this sister who turned Aoi into a vampire as well. I really love it!

Twilight addiction

Okay..so obviously I’m a twilight fan (if you happen to notice my primary pic w/c is robert pattinson a.k.a cullen!).

So I started reading the saga just a month ago and instantly liked as

in LIKED it! Actually almost half of my class reads twilight and is very much as (or maybe not) obsessed as I am. My friends and I even planned on making a guild for vampires…but mostly focusing on Vampire Kisses ans Twilight Saga. Yeah even my “cousin Meegu-chan” likes it too. So now I’m just counting down the days (we still have a month to wait) for the movie. Yeah I must admit it is a much-awaited event for my “coven” even though it is kinda stupid I must admit. But we don’t really care! I know that there are a lot of Twilight haters out there, espe

cially on gaia but I hope that this community would be a lot nicer to us fans. Twilight is not absolute crap..yes it is just another vampire book and that Anne Rice books are definitely the best (no doubt about that) but really Twilight is actually nice and it is for teenagers like me. I wasn’t born during the time of Anne Rice but I do know her works and it is obviously the original vampire series.

I’m just downloading Decode by paramore w/c is one of the soundtracks for the movie. And I’m glad to know that Hayley Williams is a also a fan of Twilight (yeah join the club Hayley!) I’d like to credit her for composing a wonderful song for the movie. Yay! congtaz Hayley! hahahaahYeah the song is so Bella! I love it. The first time I read the lyircs I knew that Hayley really got it right.

remember: life sucks and then you die…so forget about the times when you were down coz it doesn’t really matter when you’re dead

be good you know i won’t be,

xoxoHydee Ni-yaoxoxo

Myself, obviously!

Guten Tag!

**before I tell something about me…I must warn you that it is all nothing but absolute CRAP! hahahaha LOL…of course you will be the one to tell if this was worth reading anywyas…so here goes!**

First of all, here are a few names which I’d like to be called (regardless of what my real name is): you can call me Cassis (w/c is obviously my username and which is taken from The Gazette’s song “Cassis” haha), Hydeee(which is taken from my (quote) grandfather HYDE (unquote) haha! this is just one of my fantasies…ask my so-called cousin Mayavi/Reila/Meegu and all her other names.., Ni-yao which was also taken from two other JROCK bands (Nightmare and Alice Nine)…haha just combined the two names.., and the last is Jael which is a combination of my two first (real) names. I just turned sixteen which wasn’t very sweet! LOL! Screw that sweet sixteen thing…that is soooo overrated anyways…haha! So anyways, I absolutely and unconditionally love to read books above all the other things that I love to do. But I also listen to music a lot and most of the time I am online even though I really don’t have much to do on the net. Before I used to watch a lot of TV and movies but now I’m just uninterested to scan for something good to watch. When it comes to music rock is my preferred genre. I just love the sound of the electric guitar and the drums. Actually I’d like to learn to play guitar but I just can’t find the time to learn myself.

So aside from all those stuff I wrote… well I have the tendency to spam and write something very long and end up realizing that it was all just crap. My “cousin”, Jaybee and me have decided to write a journal of our own entitled the “Vikei Saga” which is all about Visual Kei, obviously. We do love to write random rants about ViKei stuff especially at school..hahaha.

Maybe now I’m just saying way too much. And about my real name well I changed my mind. I;m not going to say it here. It’s really not important to know anyways and really some people just make fun of it, which is totally funny but what the heck? I can’t changed it so deal with it. Yes, that’s me I don’t do things that I really don’t want too. Most of the time no one can force me. I like too march to my own drum. Hey it’s my life and I’m taking a stand. I’m not melodramatic or anywhere near that. I take things seriously though but I do know when to crack jokes and have fun. I’m not emotional but I’m not insensitive. At least I try not to be so as not to hurt other people. I like evil characters in books and movies. I’m not much of a protagonist’s side because I find it amusing when a person does evil things. I’m sort of mischievous and I like to pull a prank on people. It’s funny and entertaining. Oh yeah! And I also love vampire stuff and all that goth thing. Vampires are sooo murderously diabolical creatures, sometimes I wonder what I would do if they really did exist. Living for infinity is quite cool coz you have an eternity to do everything you please and not even worry about aging at all! HAHA…

That’s all!

xoxoCassisLaBillxoxo