YESTERDAY WAS A VERY MEMORABLE DAY IN MY COLLEGE LIFE. I DON’T THINK I”LL EVER FORGET IT. A DAY INCLUSIVE OF A SHOCKING REVELATION. OKAY, SO IT’S NOT SUCH A BIG THING BUT I MEAN HOW COULD WE HAVE NOT KNOWN ALL ALONG? YESTERDAY OUR BLOCK FOUND OUT THAT MY PYSCH PROF IS ACTUALLY GAY. GAY AS IN HOMO AND ALL THAT SHIT. I THOUGHT IT WAS AWESOME. ONE GIRL EVEN SAID “OH MY GOD THAT’S SO COOL”. LOLZ I THOUGHT SO TOO. ANYWAY IN THAT PLACE HOMOSEXUALITY SORT OF BECOMES PART OF THE NORMS. I MEAN NO ONE IS SURPRISED IF THIS PERSON OR THAT ONE YOU JUST PASSED BY IN THE CORRIDOR OR EVEN YOUR SEATMATE IS ACTUALLY GAY.I’VE ALWAYS ACCEPTED THE GAY CULTURE BUT WHEN IT SEEMS THAT EVERYONE AROUND IS GAY, MAYBE IT’S A BIT TOO MUCH. I GUESS IT’S REALLY IMPORTANT TO KNOW WHO YOU ARE AND TO KNOW YOUR BOUNDARIES. AND SO GOES THE SAYING OF MY PYSCH PROF “YOUR LIFE IS YOUR OWN RESPONSIBILITY”. WHICH IS SO TRUE BY THE WAY. HE’S REALLY AWESOME AND I CAN’T BELIEVE I DIDN’T DOUBT HIM. IT WASN’T OBVIOUS AT ALL. EVERYONE ALREADY KNEW THAT FACT, ALTHOUGH UNFORTUNATELY OUR BLOCK WAS OBLIVIOUS TO IT. NO WONDER HE’S SO INTELLIGENT AND ARTICULATE. IF YOU OBSERVE ALMOST ALL GAY PEOPLE ARE LIKE THAT. THEY’RE SO KNOWLEDGEABLE AND ARE GOOD TALKERS THEY COULD PROABLY JUSTIFY ANY SITUATION. HE HAS A GREAT LIFE STORY AS WELL. BUT I GUESS EVERYONE DOES. IT JUST DEPENDS ON HOW YOU SEE IT. I MEAN DURING THE TIME WHEN YOU’RE GOING THROUGH ADVERSITIES, YOU MAY THINK YOUR LIFE SUCKS BUT ONCE YOU GET OVER IT AND LOOK BACK YOU REALIZE IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL LIFE AFTER ALL 
I THINK THE SATISFACTION IS FAR GREATER WHEN YOU WORK HARD FOR SOMETHING. THAT’S JUST HOW I WANT TO SEE MY LIFE SOMEDAY. I DON’T WANT TO THINK IT’S WASTE AT ALL. I’M KEEPING THIS JOURNAL AND WILL WRITE WHATEVER THOUGHTS OR FEELINGS I HAVE DURING THESE MOMENTS AND WHEN I GET TO READ THESE AGAIN I’LL PROBABLY SMILE AND THINK HOW IMMATURE I WAS TO BE SO UNGRATEFUL AND NARROW-MINDED. IN PSYCH THERE ARE 5 LEVELS IN MORAL THINKING AND REASONING. NOT EVERYONE REACHES LEVEL 5 WHICH IS THE HIGHEST BUT I WANT TO BE ABLE TO REACH THAT THERE ARE LOTS OF POSSIBILITIES AND ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN. BUT I DO BELIEVE THAT THINGS DON’T JUST HAPPEN. THEY HAPPEN BECAUSE YOU LET THEM. WHATEVER STEP WE TAKE, WE ARE ACCOUNTABLE FOR.
I THINK THE SATISFACTION IS FAR GREATER WHEN YOU WORK HARD FOR SOMETHING. THAT’S JUST HOW I WANT TO SEE MY LIFE SOMEDAY. I DON’T WANT TO THINK IT’S WASTE AT ALL. I’M KEEPING THIS JOURNAL AND WILL WRITE WHATEVER THOUGHTS OR FEELINGS I HAVE DURING THESE MOMENTS AND WHEN I GET TO READ THESE AGAIN I’LL PROBABLY SMILE AND THINK HOW IMMATURE I WAS TO BE SO UNGRATEFUL AND NARROW-MINDED. IN PSYCH THERE ARE 5 LEVELS IN MORAL THINKING AND REASONING. NOT EVERYONE REACHES LEVEL 5 WHICH IS THE HIGHEST BUT I WANT TO BE ABLE TO REACH THAT THERE ARE LOTS OF POSSIBILITIES AND ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN. BUT I DO BELIEVE THAT THINGS DON’T JUST HAPPEN. THEY HAPPEN BECAUSE YOU LET THEM. WHATEVER STEP WE TAKE, WE ARE ACCOUNTABLE FOR.ONE THING’S FOR SURE WE ♥ SIR MOTILLA D
YOU CANNOT ESCAPE WHO ARE. LIKE THE SUNFLOWER THAT FACES THE SUN REGARDLESS. EVEN IF YOU TRY AND TURN IT THE OTHER WAY, IT ALWAYS COMES BACK FACES TO WHERE IT IS ORIENTED. ACCEPTANCE IS A GREAT THING. IT BREAKS THE BARRIER THAT HINDERS PEOPLE TO PURSUE THEIR DREAMS. IF GOD DOESN’T JUDGE PEOPLE, THEN NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO JUDGE OTHERS.UGH. I AM REMINDED AGAIN OF THAT HORRID VIDEO WE WATCHED IN CLASS. SURE THERE IS BEAUTY IN THE FORMATION OF A NEW LIFE BUT MUST I BEAR WITNESS TO THAT? MUST I SEE A WOMAN GIVE BIRTH WITH THE CAMERA FOCUSED PRECISELY ON THE BABY COMING OUT AND ALL THAT SHIT? I FEEL WOBBLY AND WEAK JUST THINKING ABOUT IT. IF THERE’S ONE THING… ONE THING… T.T HOW SCARY.
DYOU CANNOT ESCAPE WHO ARE. LIKE THE SUNFLOWER THAT FACES THE SUN REGARDLESS. EVEN IF YOU TRY AND TURN IT THE OTHER WAY, IT ALWAYS COMES BACK FACES TO WHERE IT IS ORIENTED. ACCEPTANCE IS A GREAT THING. IT BREAKS THE BARRIER THAT HINDERS PEOPLE TO PURSUE THEIR DREAMS. IF GOD DOESN’T JUDGE PEOPLE, THEN NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO JUDGE OTHERS.UGH. I AM REMINDED AGAIN OF THAT HORRID VIDEO WE WATCHED IN CLASS. SURE THERE IS BEAUTY IN THE FORMATION OF A NEW LIFE BUT MUST I BEAR WITNESS TO THAT? MUST I SEE A WOMAN GIVE BIRTH WITH THE CAMERA FOCUSED PRECISELY ON THE BABY COMING OUT AND ALL THAT SHIT? I FEEL WOBBLY AND WEAK JUST THINKING ABOUT IT. IF THERE’S ONE THING… ONE THING… T.T HOW SCARY.
FROM THAT THE TOPIC JUMPED TO SEXUAL ORIENTATION AND SUCH. LIKE HOW TO DETERMINE IF YOU’RE REALLY A HOMO OR IF YOU’RE JUST CONFUSED, THERE ARE TWO FACTORS. ONE IS IF YOU’RE JUST ATTRACTED TO THE PERSON OF THE SAME SEX EMOTIONALLY AND SITUATIONS LIKE CONSTANTLY THINKING ABOUT THAT PERSON AND WANTING TO BE WITH THAT PERSON, THEN THAT’S NOTHING BUT FRIENDSHIP (PROBABLY A BEST FRIEND TYPE OF BOND). IN THE CASE WHERE YOU ARE JUST SEXUALLY ATTRACTED TO THE PERSON, WELL THAT’S NOT GOOD AND THAT MAKES YOU A MANIAC LOLZ =.= BUT IN THE CASE WHERE YOU ARE BOTH ATTRACTED EMOTIONALLY AND SEXUALLY, THEN IT’S POSITIVE. NONETHELESS, THERE ARE OTHER FACTORS WHICH CAUSES A PERSON TO FEEL THAT WAY. IT COULD JUST BE CONFUSION AND THE WAY TO FIGURE IT OUT IS TO EXPERIMENT. YEAH, LIKE TRY BOTH RELATIONSHIPS AND SEE WHICH YOU PREFER.
SO THAT’S WHAT HAPPENED. 0.o
OOOH I ALMOST FORGOT THE CHI SERIES I MADE
OOOH I ALMOST FORGOT THE CHI SERIES I MADE
There’s more but something’s wrong with LJ >.<
