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As I walked into the restroom there was only a middle-aged woman standing inside. She looked irritable like an old maid even though I could tell that she was only middle-aged. I went on to find a clean cubicle but none of the cubicles were clean. Each looked really filthy. In that situation I would end up not doing my thing. I have this sort of obsessive compulsiveness when it comes to seats like a chair, toilet seat and such. It has to be clean and without any sort of stain or else I'd feel really uncomfortable and probably not sit at all. So with this thought in my head, I became slightly worried. But I had no other choice and so I entered one cubicle. I looked around and noticed how filthy and yellow each tile was and how black each gap was. Ugh. Then the toilet seat was so dirty in my head I imagined a thousand germs and whatnot crawling about. Who knows what disease I might catch if my skin touches the toilet seat. I was going to do my business when the middle-aged woman started talking loudly. She was saying non-sense and I became a little alarmed with the way she acted. I panicked. Screamed. The next thing I know I was calling for her from inside the cubicle. "Ahjumma, Ahjumma!!!" 

Then I woke up. It was all a dream. A nightmare, rather. Sigh.

The moment I opened my eyes, I started to panic again. My eyes felt droopy and wanting to go back to sleep but my brain says I couldn't because the nightmare would continue. I tried to fight my sleepiness and it took awhile. I felt a tinge of fear for I might not be able to wake up again and fight off the nightmare. You know, that feeling of your body becoming paralyzed and your mind is racing to what you should do. It was exactly that. Every time I have a dream like this, it's almost impossible to wake up. And each time I know that I am awake but unable to open my eyes. It's quite similar to drowning. You know you're going to die but you can't do anything about it.

The day was quite eventful. My aunt asked me to accompany her and do grocery shopping for Christmas eve. Instances like these are not as often as before so I couldn't let it pass by and let my laziness take over again. I couldn't think of anything to talk about as usual. Although the trip was completely silent. There was small talk here and there. In those awkward moments I imagined Eli puffing his cheeks. I saw him on this variety show yesterday and he was dating someone from a girl group and it was really awkward. So awkward that he resumed to puffing his cheeks. Haha. I did the same quite a few times. See, I was never good with conversation. There I was again thinking of saying this and that and ending up not saying anything because I held it back thinking it wouldn't be understood or it would be uninteresting :l But that's okay because inside my head almost a hundred conversations happen everyday. Here in my own little world :)

We to the department store and passed by the Converse area. I pointed out those leather sneakers I wanted which was in the men's section. Sadly, the smallest size doesn't fit me. My aunt was wondering why I wanted that Converse for men. Quite frankly, I think the designs for the men look better than the women's. But it's probably because of my taste. I dislike those which have so much color. Especially if I have to wear them. I can say I am a minimalist but black is really a versatile color. It's a pretty good investment :)

I went out today without my mobile phone or money. Luckily I didn't need it. It was good that I did something else today rather than just sit in front of the computer. Yet I have a lot of work to be done and so far I have done only one. I better start before I forget these things that I'm supposed to do. I must buy a planner as well.