04.21.2010

watch

“Jesus take the Wii…take it from our hens” LOLZ this just made my day
the video is for entertainment only. i like it more than the original haha 

04.19.2010

omma

sigh…i am feeling the hate again from my computer. i don’t know what happened but the cd/dvd drive stopped functioning. i just discovered it today when i was supposed to burn something. i thought it was just the blank cd i inserted that won’t work, but i tried different cds and it really won’t. i have no idea why this suddenly happened. i don’t even use it that much. a week ago i was able to burn something on a cd but after that i haven’t used it yet. i am avoiding to reformat because the OS is newly installed and it is genuine. i hope it just needs some cleaning. ohhh…these problems never stop coming. i didn’t even use the computer for days since the last time i posted an entry. D:

04.14.2010

(omma)

Going into a new school bothers me a lot these days. The air is so different from what I’m used to. I’ve never felt so lost before. Not even when I first started out my schooling, back in nursery. But of course a child wouldn’t be familiar with the feeling of intimidation. Is that it? Do I feel intimidated by these people? Well, I could say yes. But is it just me or do they feel the same way in return? Hell, I wouldn’t know just by seeing them pass by while I was waiting there. For an hour I sat on a bench and quietly saw people…young girls pass me by. They look different, far from those I’m used to seeing in my previous school. Some stared back at me for a few seconds. I tried to avoid eye contact as much as possible as I am now aware that most people aren’t used to that. And they might misinterpret me for glaring at them. But why do they still look at me like I’m gonna eat them? I sure didn’t look weird because my hair was tied back in a pony so they certainly didn’t see my weird haircut. I didn’t wear strange clothes either. Just a simple blouse and jeans. I didn’t even wear my boots since it was freakin’ hot. I’d just cause my self to suffer under the blazing sun. I even felt a bit stupid. It was quite embarrassing. The lady from the admissions office gave me instructions to go to the cashier before I get my acceptance letter and I ended up coming back to her three times. I was lost at first because the campus was so big and the room labels were confusing. The cashier’s office was further back and I couldn’t find it at first so I had to go back and ask the lady. So finally I found it and showed my receipt for the reservation fee. But the lady there assumed that I was already a college student enrolling for the next sem or something so she told me to do this and that. Still confused, I went back to the admissions office tell the lady that I had to photocopy the receipt and I need three forms ( I didn’t understand what they called it at the cashier). I am assuming that the lady from admissions probably thought I was stupid at this point and made me go back to the cashier and show both the receipt and notification letter. So I went and did as she said and finally someone from the cashier got what I meant. (sigh). I still had to photocopy the receipt and after I got the acceptance letter I just had to go to the clinic to schedule an appointment.

2 years ago I wanted to transfer to there to continue high school but I was told they only accepted transferees who are incoming second year students. Now I found out the tuition fee there actually costs 85,000 a year. Haha, so I wouldn’t really be able to transfer if I still wanted to go to college 

04.13.2010

Omma,
miyane!!!! i didn’t show up when i said i would >.< i totally missed the chance but i had to attend to college stuff…
i only found out that they changed the time for our meeting to 1pm and there was no way to contact you… so i decided to go to university first to attend to my requirements but it took so long… so i wasn’t able to go to school at all… i tried to ask karen to contact you for me but i guess it was too late =.=

…

this day kinda sucks… i had to go back and forth just to attend to college stuff… it was kinda embarrassing o.0 the people there are different and i’m totally alone… and clueless about the things i had to do…bleh 

Writer’s Block: Pet talk

If your pet could talk, what is the first thing s/he would say to you?

PRICK  nah…

Writer’s Block: Forget me not

What is your earliest vivid memory? Why do you think this memory stands out so much in your mind?

It’s a funny memory. Thinking about it makes me smile  D. Well when I was younger and still wore diapers we went by a fastfood chain and my aunt decided that we eat there. While we were eating I felt that I had to pee. Since I was wearing diapers my aunt told me that I could just pee but I refused to because I think I felt embarassed by the idea. HAHA. It’s funny cuz it shouldn’t be a big deal for a child.  D

But my grandma told me something that I did back in nursery which I can’t remember although there is proof. My teacher asked us to draw our pets. The problem was that I didn’t know how to draw a dog back then so instead I just drew a house. My teacher asked me to explain why I drew a house instead of my pet and I explained that “our pet was inside the house”. LOLZ 

04.05.2010

LOLZ. I just remembered that time when we had an activity in homeroom. We were asked to describe our friends. The person who sat beside me that day, described her friends (including me) are like a jaw breaker. HAHA for one particular reason. 

I went to school to get my clearance signed. Nothing much happened aside from enjoying and laughing at my friend who had a hard time opening my gift to her. LOLZ. Seriously, at least I didn’t put “stuff” in it this time.
Oh…the product of boredom 

Ahh…and i’m supposed to go back tomorrow. Now that sucks. It wouldn’t if it isn’t uber hot outside.

Writer’s Block: But enough about you

If it were possible to clone a same-age version of yourself, do you think the two of you would be friends? Do you think you’d enjoy each other’s company or find the similar point of view boring?

I’d find it annoying. I actually don’t like it when someone tries to be like me.

04.01.10

HAHA. HOW LONG WILL I KEEP GOING LIKE THIS? I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL A WEEK AGO. FIRST THING’S FIRST, I’M GETTING ANXIOUS. I ALWAYS AM OVER A LOT OF THINGS THAT I’M SURPRISED I DON’T HAVE ANXIETY ATTACKS  WHAT DO I DO WITH MY LIFE NOW? NOT EVERYTHING IS GOING EXACTLY AS PLANNED AND I STILL HAVE TO FIX “THIS”. I STILL HAVE THAT NEED TO GET MY LIFE ON THAT SPECIFIC TRACK I WANTED. BUT IT’S DEFINITELY GONNA TAKE SOME TIME AND I’M STILL UNSURE OF IT. I WONDER WHY I’M NOT FICKLE-MINDED. MAYBE I SHOULDN’T BE MAKING DECISIONS AS QUICKLY AS I AM NOW. BUT THAT’S JUST HOW I GREW UP. I MAKE DECISIONS AND I STICK BY IT, PERIOD. I AM FULL OF PRIDE SO I DON’T LIKE TAKING BACK WHAT I STAND FOR. BUT IT’S A GOOD THING TOO. I FEEL THAT I CAN’T REGRET ANY OF THESE THINGS I’VE DONE BECAUSE NONE OF THEM ARE ENTIRELY WRONG. MAYBE THEY’RE NOT THE BEST BUT THEY AREN’T WRONG FOR ME AT ALL. THERE IS A REASON BEHIND ALL THESE AND I’VE YET TO FIND OUT, I GUESS. MAYBE THESE THINGS WILL DO ME GOOD IN THE LONG RUN. THEY SAY WHEN YOU WANT SOMETHING YOU HAVE TO SEE YOURSELF DOING IT BUT THAT SCARES ME. DISAPPOINTMENT IS EASY TO ACCEPT WHEN I’M BEING NEGATIVE. SO I JUST TEND TO BE ONE. I THINK I HAVE TO GROW OUT OF THESE THINGS I’VE BEEN DOING. THESE THINGS I’VE BEEN OBSESSED WITH. BUT THAT’S DIFFICULT BECAUSE IT FEELS LIKE I’LL LOSE MYSELF. LIKE I’M GOING TO BE SOMEONE ELSE AND NOT THE PERSON PEOPLE KNEW JUST A FEW DAYS AGO. BUT IF I DON’T, I MIGHT BE STUCK IN THIS STATE AND NOT ACHIEVE ANYTHING. I FEEL KINDA STUPID AND I KNOW I SHOULDN’T BE FEELING THIS. WORSE, I FEEL SHALLOW, LIKE THERE’S NO DEPTH TO MY THOUGHTS. I FEEL LIKE A KID AND IT’S FRUSTRATING. I’M SUPPOSED TO BE SENSIBLE AND YET I THINK I’VE BEEN RECKLESS ALL THIS TIME. THAT IS NOT COOL AT ALL.