i cannot help but stare…

Last week was just plain boring and i’m surprised cuz i’m starting to get sleepy in class. i haven’t slept on class before. that’s why i find it strange to see some of the people in my class slacking off all the time. and by all the time i mean every single day and every opportunity they get.

and how strange is it that none of the teachers seem to care? well that’s not my problem anyways

. last saturday’s workshop was quite interesting. for the first time i listened to the lecturer from start till end well i must admit that he shared some interesting stuff about life too. the lessons are more interesting when you can relate them to real life. it’s like he shared something about him getting into college and realizing in his third year that he wanted to shift into a different course. his previous course was BS Math then he shifted ti ECE which has something to do with engineering. he said when he was in high school he loved math so much that’s why he took it. but then he realized that he wanted something that could be applied in everyday life. it’s not because math was hard for him but because it was always about proving and learning theorems and stuff that you never really applied everyday. so yeah he realized it wasn’t right for him. that’s what i’m afraid would happen to me. i mean what if i choose the wrong course? when i was younger i wanted to be a doctor so bad that i focused on it for years until high school. then i realized it’d be hard and it would take a long time before i could really work. plus people say that when you get out of college your job won’t really be the one you studied for four years especially at a time like this.i don’t think it’s because i can’t handle the intense studying but because of the time and money involved. i don’t want my mother to have to work her but

t off just to support me through college. yeah i could get a job but still it won’t be enough. right now i’m just thinking really hard. i want to take psychology but i also want to take something that has to do with computers. then he also said something about the things in life not being ideal. he said that in reality there is nothing ideal. like for example in a student. even the most studious student will become lazy at some point. that one i can totally relate to. i mean i’m not that studious but i’m also not this ;azy compared to before.

on to a funnier topic. friday was totally unbelievable. i could not believe my eyes when i saw someone that looked like strify!! yeah he was gay, that one was obvious. but really never in my life did i expect to find someone ho resembles strify! i tried not to stare or anything but i just couldn’t help it. it happened when my friend was buying food from our school cafeteria and this person was buying too. then i looked in his direction and thought

he looked like someone. then when we went upstairs i went to take a last look at him and then our eyes met and i suddenly realized who he looked like. it was a bit of a shock though and quite embarrassing coz he caught me looking. but when he looked at me he just smiled with his eyes which made him look like strify even

more. he was beautiful that’s for sure. only with slightly less flawless skin. then my friend and i talked about it and we decided to look for him again just to make sure he really looked like strify.. we even made this new term but don’t ask what it is.

then i also saw this picture of Craig which i find uber cool and can’t stop staring at…

I killed the prom queen

No I didn’t really kill the prom queen. I just like saying it anyways. Now I’m just glad prom is O-V-E-R. I’ve been anxious about since it was announced. Everyone’s fussing about it including my poor adviser who has to organize everything and take all the load. Truth is I didn’t really want to go. If it was allowed not to go and if we were plenty I wouldn’t go at all. I’m not really into that kind of stuff where you party and dance blah blah blah.. If it was something like a rock concert. I would’ve enjoyed it but it’s not. It was a semi-formal event and we had to wear cocktail dresses and we had to have a partner which really sucks because I go to an all girls high school maening we had to find and invite our partners. I would have had my mom or someone else do it for me. I wouldn’t really mind that. It was difficult to invite someone because I am the type of person who has a lot of pride. To be honest it was exactly what I expected it to be. Boring and a total waste of time and money. You know what if we were rich I woldn;t mind paying 4,000 for prom and not going at all. But the fact is that I’m not and I would just feel guilty for making my mom pay 4,000 and not go at all. Maybe if there was a refund I would just pay and pretend I got sick so I couldn’t go or something. That would’ve been easy. My friends and I didn’t dance but we didn’t just sit and stared at each other at the table either. We just went arond taking pictures and table hopping just so we wouldn’t look like total losers. Well we’re not even if we didn’t enjoy prom. Most people would say that prom is the highlight of being in high school. I really do think otherwise. I mean I know lots of celebrities who didn’t go to prom but look where they are now? It’s not like being prom queen is gonna get me to a good college. If there were representatives from great colleges to socialize with (kinda like Ivy Week) then I’d be more happy to go. Most people would enjoy prom but not me. I know that’s hard to understand but well that’s what I think. It’s not a reason that I’m not used to those things or anything I just do not appreciate it nor does it entertain me in any way. I just wish that next year we would be plenty so that I don’t actually have to go. I don’t care if it’s senior year and that it could be the last time I party with my friends because I’m pretty sure it won’t be. The only thing I looked forward to was our bet on who will trip the most. Even that didn’t happen so there was nothing fun about it. Maybe the part where we took loads of pictures and modeled our clothes because it’s very rare for most of us to wear dresses including me. I seriously haven’t worn a dress in years. LOL. No, seriously.

i got home by 1:00 and a few hours after I had to go to this workshop about basic engineering and electrival engineering. Yeah it was interesting but I felt really sleepy so it was kinda hard ro focus. We did this hands on activity on circuits and stuff like that. But it wasb’t just that, that’s interesting. The university that we went to was also very interesting. It was really huge like a big compund but what’s strange is that there were lots of trees and tall grass and there were houses around the unviersity. We even got lost and had to take a jeep around the place. It was nice to go there but also very costly.

A/N If ya’ll don’t know I Killed The Prom Queen is an American rock band \m/

Happy Birthday to my Brother (it’s okay to DREAM!)

Happy birthday to RUKI!!!! You are the greatest and

we LOVE you! Keep making good music and keep writing awesome songs for us.!!!!

I will always look p to you and see you like a brother.:]

Yeah that’s was all I wanted to say.

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