Which is worse? To lose something or have it taken from you?

I just wonder what others may think about this. When I opened my email last time I found this question sent to me by yahoo answers.

In my opinion, I think that having something taken from you is much worse than losing something. When you lose something you know that it’s your fault and that it is really you who is to blame. At least when you lose something you can find ways to take it back. On the other hand, when something is taken from you, it is harder to accept because it has been taken from you. Even though you know in yourself that it is not entirely your fault but still it is somehow unfair. Also it is harder to find ways of taking it back because there is something that stops you from taking it back.

Rinimu made me this bloody banner of my dear tiger…haha

Danke Riniimu!!

happy birthday karen..

yeah today is my friend’s birthday…HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAREN! (even though she won’t be able to read this..haha) anyways, the past few days i’ve been too lazy to write an entry so i kept on delaying it even though i am always online. right now difficult projects are being given to us in school.. now we have to write a baby thesis which is a requirement so that i can pass my third year. i can’t even think of an easy topic to write about on my thesis. my teacher says it’s up to us to decide what we like so long as we accomplish it. i would want to write a study related to psychology because that’s the course i want to take up. the thing is i’m not really sure if i can research on something related to that which is not that hard to accomplish. i need to think of something which i can do because it has to be passed on march or else i would be forced to take summer classes. and i don’t want that to happen because i’ve never taken summer classes my whole life. i dunno if i can survive these projects when we also have an investigatory project in chemistry and a huge diorama to do for math which will be put in an exhibit. oh and tomorrow we also have the second elimination for math and science quiz bee. haha i don’t even know if i’ll be able to get in this time even though i won last year..and then we also have the literary quiz bee and essay writing contest…our schedule at this point is so tight. there’s just too much activities especially co-curricular ones that we can’t even concentrate on academics anymore. i seriously think that academics is more important that co-curricular. i think that co-curricular is just for having a balanced learning. i remember what my uncle said..when i get to college the focus would be on academics better prepare for that.. i still don’t know what course i’ll take..one thing’s for sure though..it will be in the field of medicine.. i’ve always dreamed of becoming a doctor and i am determined to pursue that..

it'll be my shiny armour...

Halloween isn’t even finished yet but now I’m just really excited for Christmas to come. I’ve never been this excited but when I saw this

I knew I had to have it for Christmas. Yeah, isn’t it beautiful? I know this one particular ring is too much to ask since it costs 350 USD and that it’s from Vivienne Westwood (which is a UK brand and artists like Nana Kitade have this ring). But I really wanna have one like it even though it’s not really from Vivienne Westwood.

Meegu-chan and I have been drooling over this ring for days now. Haha and then this plan came up in my mind. I’m gonna ask my mom to buy me a ring that is like it. I’m not hoping for a real armour ring by VW all I want is something that looks similar to it.

hey it's my life but why am i not taking a stand?

Once we were told that “we always have a choice”…i dunno if that “we” applies to me or anything but it seems like it doesn’t. Sometimes I just get forced to do something even though I really don’t want to and that sucks. But then again life sucks and then you die. But really, it is VERY annoying when people take control over you. It’s not fair and if you resist they find something to blackmail you. The question is always yes or not no? Heck, yeah that’s the kind of choice given! I just don’t like it when people force me. Can’t I volunteer on doing something and not get ordered to do it instead? I hate what I’m gonna do. I try to think of it positively but the real picture of it is very haunting. I HATE IT! Right now I may look like I’m willing and happy to do it but if you really know me,you would know that it’s killing me deep down. I am not and never will be happy of what stupid thing i am gonna do. I swear I won’t do it again. If i make a fool of myself onstage on the 24th then all hell will break lose and i’ll never forgive the people who made me do it. The only good thing i’m getting from this are the clothes that i’m supposed to wear and even that is giving me a hard time. Plus i am not comfortable with the whole thing.

not in the mood…

seriously i am not in the mood to write anything at all…and i’m also too lazy to write the conclusion part for my classmate’s oratorical piece….i could have done it earlier if she had given it to me days ago…and to think that the contest is this friday….haha and yeah i even forgot i joined the literary quiz bee which is on wednesday LOL!! haha well i won’t study anyways even if i remembered it earlier…haha i only study on the day it will take place…haha..

now isn’t it obvious i don’t have anything to write at all? i’m just ranting now so my friends will know i’m still alive…haha…

gotta have some more time to think…even though i always do…but this time it’s really serious stuff… i hate not having time to look at scans but i’m really not in the mood..even though that cheers me up…haha..

life is so dramatic i would wish for it to leave me alone…but i can’t so i won’t…haha!!