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Hey ya! I haven’t posted in like ages but I’m not neglecting LJ on purpose. It’s just that schoolworks are piling up and finals are nearing. At least I’m already done with my history final since that is a creative presentation. I’m rest assured that we’ll get a high grade there since the response was pretty good. Well we should be since I didn’t sleep at wink the day before that. Sore eyes SUCK. I knew I was gonna end up with some kind of eye infection but it didn’t have to be in the same week as our creative presentation D:

I need a good video editor for this new project PSH Productions. What is PSH prod? I’ll just post one of those things we’ve already created some time. I still have to put the project making videos together. Then I’ll sow you what this is all about.

What’s been happening to me nowadays? Well I’m kinda tight on money so I tend to compute in my head all the time. Hmmm I’m trying so hard to think positively and focus on what I want rather than what I don’t. In a couple of weeks the first semester will be over so I’ll get to see my grades and know how I’m doing so far, There’s only one thing that motivates me now. STANFORD 0.o Yup, that’s right. I want to experience presenting my paper at THE STANFORD. I want to meet those world-renowned professors there. Of course it’s not for free but I’ll have to think about the money later. What’s important is that I invest NOW. That means I’ll have to come up with a WORLD CLASS paper. I don’t really know how. But I still have less than 2 years to think about that.

I haven’t forgotten to enjoy things. I like going to Nihongo class even though it’s kind of  a hassle for me since I have to sacrifice my Saturdays and I rarely ever get to have a weekend now. But that’s okay since it’s something I like doing. LOVE WHAT YOU DO AND DO WHAT YOU LOVE. Right?  )

HE WHO HAS A WHY TO LIVE FOR CAN DEAL WITH ALMOST ANY HOW  ) Of course. I have a goal and I must live towards that. I can only see that for now.

Talking about seeing I’m kinda having trouble with my vision. Sometimes I can’t see very well and it’s just really blurred. I can’t wear my contacts since I’ve still got to take the eye drops to cure the infection. I’m sure I didn’t get it from my contacts but I’ll just dispose that one pair and the lubricant as well for good measure.

This computer is really malfunctioning and the memory is almost used up too. That’s because there’s something wrong with the partition that was created and so I’ll have to have this reformatted. That is when I get to buy a new operating system. And not the bogus one HAHA. Yeah and I’ll have to get the DVD Rom fixed too before the warranty ends.

There’s so much to do. I have so many expenses that I’m always calculating HAHA. I feel sleepy all the time and it’s so hard to get up in the morning. I’m even lazy to open the computer now. I really do not want to spend too much time online.

I’M STILL ALIVE. I WILL NOT BREAK SO EASILY. IT’S ALL GOOD. THINK POSITIVE. FEEL GOOD  )

Oh yeah and THE LAST EXORCISM SUCKS! We were supposed to watch STEP UP 3 but they weren’t showing it at Eastwood anymore. The whole movie was like exorcist meets paranormal activity meets blair witch project. The girl was schizophrenic that’s for sure. The father or the psycho pastor probably raped her and she got traumatized and turned into a schizophrenic. That weird fetus that was crying made the entire movie a joke. Not to mention the crappy visual effects. LMAO. We were laughing the whole time. It was like that time when we watched DEATH PROOF . Eli Roth should stick to HOSTEL type movies. Anyway that’s what slasher films are all about. All gore, no substance. The girl got pregnant and they aborted the fetus. Yes it was just a fetus and not yet a baby since the girl didn’t even have a baby bump. Then when it came out it was CRYING. WTGWT?!?! LMAO. Then I realized while watching the movie that I may be dealing with people like that in the future. That sounds exciting and creepy.

Those clothes at Eastwood are really nice. I wanna buy that spring dress with the blazer. HEHE.

Ok now I remember Georgina Wilson at the 2pm shoot. Errr I really like her dress there. She’s so gorgeous and she got to chill with 2pm! And she called Chansung her BEST FRIEND! T.T

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kyou wa hachi-gatsu jusan-nichi no kinyobi desu! 

Kunbanwa minna-san! I haven’t posted in a while. I’ve been busy with college an all. I have one last midterm exam on tuesday and it’s algebra. Aish! I’m totally trying not to think about sucking at math. The secret is to THINK POSTIVE and FEEL GOOD. That’s all I have to focus on and it’ll all be great.

I haven’t made a single lecture note about psych class and yet I know that I remember everything we’ve discussed. My prof is really great ^^. LOVE WHAT YOU DO AND DO WHAT YOU LOVE. Yup, that’s totally right! When you don’t get forced to do something it seems easier and more fun to do stuff. Ehem, ehem. LOLZ…
Of course I still remember…it continues to haunt me til this day.

LOLZ so I walk into my aunt’s room and saw those sunglasses… sshh! she doesn’t know…i was looking for the fake glasses but instead i saw the sunglasses so…

I don’t know what to write. sorry I’m still a bit preoccupied with the things I studied this week 
and that song we made up in nihongo class keeps on ringing in my head
♫ nichiyobi, getsuyobi, kayobi, suiyobi, mokuyobi, kinyobi, dayobi ♫
numbers and the calendar sure are hard to memorize… but i’ll be learn all the basic soon! i won’t stop studying until I’m fluent!

Nihon wa muzokashii desu!

hmm i need to memorize adjectives and other words now…

YESSS!!! I was here >>>

see? i got stamped lolz 0.o

Got to spend the day with Clover-chan!

Okay so the day went like this. Clover and I met up along with my block mate Ahj (Shinee fan). Then we took a taxi to SM Megamall since the event was held there. We got there real early and the mall hasn’t even opened up yet. It was on the fifth floor at megatrade hall 1.

There weren’t that many stalls but we did buy some merchandise like my Big Bang shirt and those domo accessories hehe. I plan to pin them on my vest  Then there was a contest and the prize was an autographed poster of 2pm! Yeah I wanted it. The question was EASY. I raised my hand but gave up, haha. What do I have against a guy with a huge paw on his right hand??? And so the guy with the Bo peep paw won. We even passed by him a couple of times. I swear I almost wanted to buy the poster from him. It was autographed damn it! Chansung’s writing is on it and I was this close =.= I thought they also raffled an autographed album. Guess not. It was tiring to go around. We only lasted about 2 hours or so. There were too many people that SM management had to stopped the selling of tickets to more people wanting to come in. Too bad for them. Good thing we came super early.

The funny part of the event was when they started showing music videos on the projector and everyone gathered. Not just that, people went crazy as if the bands were there and all. LOLZ. It was so amusing for me to look at. I mean, HELLO? Like they don’t do that at their own houses when they see the videos in private? There was too much fangirling for artists who aren’t even there. People were dancing and I could feel the ground shaking. Take note we were on the fifth floor so… they had to warn the organizers to to be cautious since the glass panels at the lower floors might break or something.

The host was amusing too. He’s Korean but I guess he lives here now.

And there was also this instance when we were looking at magazines and a copy of Toma Ikuta’s An-An cover was there. LOLZ. Clover saw it. Why do I always see that mag?

Hmmm what else? I dunno what to write now…
Till next time! ♥

07.17.10

YESTERDAY WAS A VERY MEMORABLE DAY IN MY COLLEGE LIFE. I DON’T THINK I”LL EVER FORGET IT. A DAY INCLUSIVE OF A SHOCKING REVELATION. OKAY, SO IT’S NOT SUCH A BIG THING BUT I MEAN HOW COULD WE HAVE NOT KNOWN ALL ALONG? YESTERDAY OUR BLOCK FOUND OUT THAT MY PYSCH PROF IS ACTUALLY GAY. GAY AS IN HOMO AND ALL THAT SHIT. I THOUGHT IT WAS AWESOME. ONE GIRL EVEN SAID “OH MY GOD THAT’S SO COOL”. LOLZ I THOUGHT SO TOO. ANYWAY IN THAT PLACE HOMOSEXUALITY SORT OF BECOMES PART OF THE NORMS. I MEAN NO ONE IS SURPRISED IF THIS PERSON OR THAT ONE YOU JUST PASSED BY IN THE CORRIDOR OR EVEN YOUR SEATMATE IS ACTUALLY GAY.I’VE ALWAYS ACCEPTED THE GAY CULTURE BUT WHEN IT SEEMS THAT EVERYONE AROUND IS GAY, MAYBE IT’S A BIT TOO MUCH. I GUESS IT’S REALLY IMPORTANT TO KNOW WHO YOU ARE AND TO KNOW YOUR BOUNDARIES. AND SO GOES THE SAYING OF MY PYSCH PROF “YOUR LIFE IS YOUR OWN RESPONSIBILITY”. WHICH IS SO TRUE BY THE WAY. HE’S REALLY AWESOME AND I CAN’T BELIEVE I DIDN’T DOUBT HIM. IT WASN’T OBVIOUS AT ALL. EVERYONE ALREADY KNEW THAT FACT, ALTHOUGH UNFORTUNATELY OUR BLOCK WAS OBLIVIOUS TO IT. NO WONDER HE’S SO INTELLIGENT AND ARTICULATE. IF YOU OBSERVE ALMOST ALL GAY PEOPLE ARE LIKE THAT. THEY’RE SO KNOWLEDGEABLE AND ARE GOOD TALKERS THEY COULD PROABLY JUSTIFY ANY SITUATION. HE HAS A GREAT LIFE STORY AS WELL. BUT I GUESS EVERYONE DOES. IT JUST DEPENDS ON HOW YOU SEE IT. I MEAN DURING THE TIME WHEN YOU’RE GOING THROUGH ADVERSITIES, YOU MAY THINK YOUR LIFE SUCKS BUT ONCE YOU GET OVER IT AND LOOK BACK YOU REALIZE IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL LIFE AFTER ALL  I THINK THE SATISFACTION IS FAR GREATER WHEN YOU WORK HARD FOR SOMETHING. THAT’S JUST HOW I WANT TO SEE MY LIFE SOMEDAY. I DON’T WANT TO THINK IT’S WASTE AT ALL. I’M KEEPING THIS JOURNAL AND WILL WRITE WHATEVER THOUGHTS OR FEELINGS I HAVE DURING THESE MOMENTS AND WHEN I GET TO READ THESE AGAIN I’LL PROBABLY SMILE AND THINK HOW IMMATURE I WAS TO BE SO UNGRATEFUL AND NARROW-MINDED. IN PSYCH THERE ARE 5 LEVELS IN MORAL THINKING AND REASONING. NOT EVERYONE REACHES LEVEL 5 WHICH IS THE HIGHEST BUT I WANT TO BE ABLE TO REACH THAT  THERE ARE LOTS OF POSSIBILITIES AND ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN. BUT I DO BELIEVE THAT THINGS DON’T JUST HAPPEN. THEY HAPPEN BECAUSE YOU LET THEM. WHATEVER STEP WE TAKE, WE ARE ACCOUNTABLE FOR.

ONE THING’S FOR SURE WE ♥ SIR MOTILLA  D
YOU CANNOT ESCAPE WHO ARE. LIKE THE SUNFLOWER THAT FACES THE SUN REGARDLESS. EVEN IF YOU TRY AND TURN IT THE OTHER WAY, IT ALWAYS COMES BACK FACES TO WHERE IT IS ORIENTED. ACCEPTANCE IS A GREAT THING. IT BREAKS THE BARRIER THAT HINDERS PEOPLE TO PURSUE THEIR DREAMS. IF GOD DOESN’T JUDGE PEOPLE, THEN NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO JUDGE OTHERS.UGH. I AM REMINDED AGAIN OF THAT HORRID VIDEO WE WATCHED IN CLASS. SURE THERE IS BEAUTY IN THE FORMATION OF A NEW LIFE BUT MUST I BEAR WITNESS TO THAT? MUST I SEE A WOMAN GIVE BIRTH WITH THE CAMERA FOCUSED PRECISELY ON THE BABY COMING OUT AND ALL THAT SHIT? I FEEL WOBBLY AND WEAK JUST THINKING ABOUT IT. IF THERE’S ONE THING… ONE THING… T.T HOW SCARY.

FROM THAT THE TOPIC JUMPED TO SEXUAL ORIENTATION AND SUCH. LIKE HOW TO DETERMINE IF YOU’RE REALLY A HOMO OR IF YOU’RE JUST CONFUSED, THERE ARE TWO FACTORS. ONE IS IF YOU’RE JUST ATTRACTED TO THE PERSON OF THE SAME SEX EMOTIONALLY AND SITUATIONS LIKE CONSTANTLY THINKING ABOUT THAT PERSON AND WANTING TO BE WITH THAT PERSON, THEN THAT’S NOTHING BUT FRIENDSHIP (PROBABLY A BEST FRIEND TYPE OF BOND). IN THE CASE WHERE YOU ARE JUST SEXUALLY ATTRACTED TO THE PERSON, WELL THAT’S NOT GOOD AND THAT MAKES YOU A MANIAC LOLZ =.= BUT IN THE CASE WHERE YOU ARE BOTH ATTRACTED EMOTIONALLY AND SEXUALLY, THEN IT’S POSITIVE. NONETHELESS, THERE ARE OTHER FACTORS WHICH CAUSES A PERSON TO FEEL THAT WAY. IT COULD JUST BE CONFUSION AND THE WAY TO FIGURE IT OUT IS TO EXPERIMENT. YEAH, LIKE TRY BOTH RELATIONSHIPS AND SEE WHICH YOU PREFER.

SO THAT’S WHAT HAPPENED. 0.o
OOOH I ALMOST FORGOT THE CHI SERIES I MADE 

There’s more but something’s wrong with LJ >.<

Alas I finally figured out how to make these 0.o

My first batch of GIFs made about a week ago. These are just sooo funny. I enjoyed making them so much 

lolz showdown 

i saw this and i just HAD to learn myself

brave sound, brave sound

junho-ssi

shake it high kick boy!

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chanana's abs

07.02.2010

“So no matter how we part…I still believe there was a reason why we met.”

Today is the 2nd of July. My birthday is 24 days away and I’ll be a year older. I’ve no problem with getting older. The only thing that sucks is that I’m not gonna get any taller anymore. I’m only somewhere between 5’4 and 5’5… I think. The good thing is that I exceeded the average height for us Filipinos which is 5’2 (women) but I’m still not tall enough! My goal was to grow at least up to 5’7 T.T That didn’t happen and it can’t happen anymore. It really sucks, although I’m already taller than most people here anyway XP

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71~Into The Fire, ladies and gentlemen XD I wanna watch this so bad. In fact I wanna watch this more than I wanna watch Eclipse. I think my grandpa would love this movie. It’s a war movie and he loves those stuff. Aside from the fact that TOP is in this movie, it also has a great storyline. It was based on the events during the Korean war, focusing mainly on the 71 student soldiers who tried to defend South Korea from North Korea. It’s historical. It’s a war movie. It has TOP in it ^^

Korea makes the best movies this time around. Actually, Korea is very successful now. They’re even a part of the World Cup XD I wonder when my country will become like that. We have a new president now but I think it takes more than just 6 years to make such a great leap from being a third world to a first world country. A slowly progressing country wouldn’t be so bad either. I hope when I graduate there would at least be a difference.

I haven’t posted in so long. There are so many things to study and I get home from college feeling very drained T.T We don’t even have projects yet but it’s really exhausting and disorienting. I have to read complex stuff everyday. It’s so nice to learn these things though. Just like what Adam Levine said “You get jaded but you like it.” It’s not only that, I think what drains my energy the most is trying to fit in with others. I’ve never tried so hard in my entire life. HAHA. What saddens me is that, it’s not consistent. Sometimes I’m happy going with the flow and trying to have fun with them and sometimes I just feel like no one gets me. I even get the feeling I’m not wanted…it’s paranoia, I know. I want to go home when I’m there but I feel I have to be there. I know I plan to transfer schools but there’s something that’s keeping me there. It’s probably my ambition.

In other news…

He makes me smile stupidly^ ^

Chansung the highkick idol HAHA (but yeah he’s good at taekwondo and kendo 

Chansung spaces out in places he shouldn’t^ ^ I do that too when I ride a public vehicle off to somewhere, especially the time when I take the LRT hoe. LOLZ I know it’s not good to do that since I might miss the stops and it’s not safe especially on jeepneys or buses but I can’t help it XD VOICE CRACK! adorable♥♥♥

…i’m gonna be okay (gonna be okay) i’ll be okay (gotta be okay) baby without u (without u)….