rant

i haven’t been doing really well lately. first u got sick for a week. then school’s been really hard for me. it’s so hard to catch up on the lessons i missed. on top of that i have to do all these make-up work. waaah my soc teacher gave me a whole chapter to report on. it’s usually easy for me but i’m not really interested in economics. i like history better to be honest. i feel like giving up most of the time. i’m so tired and my eyes hurt. my brain’s about to explode from all the things i have to learn. then i’m also worried about the entrance exams i’m going to take. maybe one day i’ll collapse because of anxiety. yeah i’m an anxious person. i think too much sometimes but then again i’m also capable f putting things at the back of my mind. but sometimes i’m just so worried about stuff. the only thing that’s keeping me alive right now is my addiction. it’s like my reason for living. my happiness. but then is it the right kind of happiness? >>taken from baka-chan<<>

i think that i’m unfortnate but if i am then there are other people who are more unfortunate. everyday something comes up that i’m tired of thinking about it. i hate it. life wasnt this troublesome. and “some” people are picking on me. always pressuring me to be the “best”. well guess what? i cant and i dont care. i just want to live my life according to how i want to live it and do whatever i want to do. not do stuff ’cause i have to impress people.

aside from all these i’m also broke. i’ve no money and i even have to starve myself to keep up.