05.22.2010

These two lines are awesome. I get so much of these things from watching dramas which why I keep watching them. KBS has such great writers ☺☺☺

“You don’t smile because you’re happy. You’re happy because you smile.”
~IRIS

“You don’t believe what you see. You see what you believe in.”
~THE LUCIFER

Too bad I lost my old phone. I had these lines stored there. They are said at such random moments and I just had to write it somewhere so I won’t forget. They might be useful one day.

And now I’m listening to ballads which is why I’ve taken a liking for 2AM. They’re really great singers. They deserve t be recognized ☺☺☺ and a better company… like YG? haha I’m getting the impression that JYP too hard on his talents. I mean you do need to train them well but making them feel unappreciated and limiting them so much on allowance when they make you enough money is a bit too much… it’s just a sad story coming from the artists themselves… no wonder Rain left JYP. It’s not because he had the money to start his own company, it’s probably because of something else. And now the company’s going through a deficit. Too bad.

Oh is that my problem? Guess not! ☺☺☺ Whatever.

You better run, run, run, run
Run devil run, run

So the real reason why I logged on. Just so I don’t forget these ideas when they come to mind I’m gonna type it here. i figured I’m not gonna waste paper by writing down drafts. i’m just gonna compile everything and finalize it before I write it down that notebook Clover gave me. Because I do value it. I value the fact she appreciates my ability and encouraged me ☺☺☺ And so I’d like to give her a shout out! hahaha

[ what is my destiny? why can't i just say simply what is on my mind? why do i choose to write down everything? but then again everything is a story waiting to be told. people won't take time to listen to someone like me. no, they won't. because if you just take time and look at the rest of the world, you'll find that everyone is just too busy to listen. people rush off to go somewhere, to do unfinished jobs and most of all to earn money. nut me i don't have anything better to do with my life. up until now all i've been doing is waste it. all those days that i watched pass by me, it all seems wasteful and reckless. all this time i believed i was making something of myself. yet, after all i've done, it all accounts to nothing now. i thought to myself before when i first realized it, that i want to be able to look back someday and see the world as a beautiful place. something that i'll regret leaving when i'm weak and dying. ]

[ the water pressure is starting to get to me. i am starting to feel a sense of panic in my chest. too much water has infiltrated my lungs, i'm probably gonna choke to death. i stare blankly at the vast darkness and feel the cold seeping into my skin, freezing my insides and affecting my body processes. am i drowning? if i am, then i will gladly comply. drowning is such a beautiful death isn't it? the water takes your life and you become entombed in a cold and dark place unknown. deep within the depths of the ocean never to be found again. you are alone with no one to witness what happens,and soon you become too numb to resist the cold and pain of dying. and then it happens. you lose consciousness and never will you gain it back, ever. as the tiny bit of light disappears and i begin to accept my death, a hand suddenly grabs my wrist and i am dragged back into the real world. the chaotic place which i was ready to leave wouldn't allow me to. oxygen rushes back to my lungs... ]


Fan fic in the making >.<