02.28.10

Today is the last day of Feb. The end of the road is near for us and soon we all have to take separate paths and prepare to face the coming days on our own. We would still probabl meet but not as often as we want to. From then on we would have to watch our own backs and focus on our lives. If and when I see my friends again I want to know that all of us had and has a great life ahead. I hope that the decisions we make will be for our best interests and the mistakes we will make will not cause such a huge impact on our lives. After all no one can see into the future nor alter the events that happen but one can only hope for a good life.

And so the countdown begins…

17 days…

02.23.10

OMGeee…LOLZ i’m here again just to say… THAT I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS SONG AND MV!!!
WATCH
whaaaa WHY DOES THAT GIRL GET TO HAVE TOP AND GD??? OHHHH!!! lolZ this MV is like from a long time ago but it’s one of my faves from them >.<
and im excited to learn it on guitar since it’s such a beauriful song  i love how TOP and GD answer each other and ACT all TOUGH… aaaaaackkk… i’m addicted to this right NOW >.<

02.22.10

 oi…i’m here again…wth i’m always here lol. anyways, ahh my bloody fingers won’t submit.. haha i’m currenlty learning some songs. shinji and i are bonding again. well today is a holiday and there’s nothing to do. i woke up this morning and remembered to get a haircut soon but i’m feeling too lazy to go outside. summer is near and it’s too hot to go outisde. i’d rather stay home. aside from that there’s no one who can go with me >.< i’m having some problems with the computer..it’s on safe mode now which sucks… better change the OS soon. windows 7 sucks like vista. i’m gonna settle with xp pro… i hope it doesn’t always hang-up like this one..=.-= i’m wearing reila’s chain earing…oh now i get it… haha [suddenly thinks of a possible explanation for certain circumstances]  i didn’t get to wear this to prom since it’s a formal event and they might throw me out if i did…lolz but that wouldn’t have been such a bad thing either haha >.< oh i have a book to read it’s called ‘the host’ by stephenie meyer… i leeched it from ‘the bookworm’ lolz [thanks danz] i have to cover this before i return it.. i can’t take it when a book gets damaged…seriously… i’m such a geek haha again im reminded of those summer days when i didn’t have anything to do.. and what does a bored geek do? why, she needs the harry potter series again and again till she memorizes every chapter and can practically tell the entire story in detail lolz. i still remember the spells…my fave is ‘rictusempra’ lolz it’s that scene in chamber of secrets where malfoy and harry were in a duel…ok i have to stop myself now…hahahaha i’m just ranting now… tomorrow we don;t have classes too. awhile ago i was pondering over why i’m still amazed everytime i listen to HYDE. his voice is still the most spectacular and heart-stopping voice i’ve ever heard in my entire life. then i thought about finding someone who is as tall as MYV, as great and good-looking as Uruha, as poetic as Ruki, as cool as TOP and has a voice like Hyde… oh will i ever  find someone like that? maybe someone who also dances like Jae Bum lolz. i saw Younha’s broke up today MV. it’s so sad, it’s actually like this movie i saw recently ‘a millionaire’s first love’. it’s sad because the girl died in the end. but both are great. about the movie, there were lines that i really loved like when the girl said to her mum who left her when she was young…”i have forgiven you and i hope that you will also forgive me for hating you”… i could understand her but in a different situation =.<…. then there was this funny line that the guy wrote down…”someone who lingers in front of your house for an hour is called a stalker. i stayed for TWO”…..awwwww that line sells…. i’m gonna watch more dramas online… i was gonna watch crows zero 2 since i really liked the first one…

02.20.10

hello. at last prom is over and done with. hahaha never again do i have to attend prom.  D oh the stress of it all. i have to get this and that done blah blah blah… the only fun thing about it was that i got to do it with my friends. we had to walk around the mall in high heels and make-up lolz. then we got to do a ‘photoshoot’ at the hotel, i haven’t seen how it turned out tho haha. last, i got to wear those heels and that ring i love so much XD

me and rei were strolling by the pool area of the hotel cuz we wanted to explore the vicinity. we even found a wine bottle and a half-filled glass near the bridge, too bad there wasn’t a camera. i think that was around 12 am cuz rei’s dad suddenly appeared out of nowhere and told us to go back inside lolz. we didn’t even know how he got there, he just appeared right in front of us. strange.

i love this pic  ^ porky is such a brat LOLZ

02.13.10

She sighed as she sat down and listened to her iPod. The songs played randomly but suprisingly all of them were relatively significant to how she felt at the moment. She thought it was strange… but whatever that feeling was, she couldn’t deny it. There’s something she couldn’t figure out, at least not with her way of thinking. She knew that it was way beyond what would allow her mind to ponder. For that she felt helpless. Pain. She felt a pang of pain inside her when she sees the other lonely. She knew there’s no way to help her. And she couldn’t really offer it, for that move would bring about some other things. Somehow she felt something was up around her. Her instincts are mostly right which is why she trusts her guts. But this time she didn’t want to trust nor accept what it has been trying to tell her. Everytime the thought came she would shut her mind and deny it as best she could. The mere thought of it creeps her out only because it’ll ruin things. She’s afraid to lose something she has found and accepting “it” would make her lose what she just found. It makes her sad to think of that. She didn’t know how or what the reasons were. Maybe if she acted cool and cold then it would go away. The old ways would come back and everything before that would re-surface again. But when? Waiting is so hard. It pains her on the inside although she has tried not to let it show and act like everything’s the way it always has been. She tried to come up with ways to make it go away. She always thought that facing the truth head-on would resolve things better than running away from it. But that didn’t work. Maybe it only made things harder. And nothing came off of it. Then she thought she could forget about it for awhile and at times it would work. But then that particular ”air” comes back from time to time. And she could feel the change immediately. The silence and weird stare. Being the girl who tried to be logical and crtitical she was sure she could face it. But now,,, it feels that all of that was only a facade. It slowly crumbled down that she can’t even look directly anymore. She was afraid anyone would see through it. Soon enough this would go away. Whether she wanted it or not. Because soon she will go on a different road to where she always thought she wanted to go. Away from all this that suddenly came up and made her go into a detour.  So now she decides to let it be and bury the thought until it dies out. Things will change in the near future. These things will be forgotten and when she goes back to that same road one day it will all be different.

fandiction in the works