03.21.2010

WOW I HAVEN’T POSTED IN A WEEK. THAT FELT LIKE A LONG TIME (FOR ME). IT REALLY DID. I’VE BEEN SLEEPING A LOT LATELY. JUST TRYING TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THE TIME WE’RE NOT SUPPOSED TO DO ANYTHING. THAT’S WHY I FIND IT ANNOYING SOMETIMES WHEN WE HAVE TO PRACTICE FOR GRADUATION. I’M REALLY NOT USED TO IT. ESPECIALLY WHEN THE LAST THREE YEARS WE’VE HAD THE SAME ROUTINE FOR MARCH. TO GET OVER WITH THE EXAMS AND SLACK OFF THE REST OF THE REMAINING SCHOOL DAYS. IT’S SO BORING IN SCHOOL THAT IT’S REALLY POINTLESS TO ATTEND. BUT THIS WEEK IS THE LAST 4 DAYS AND I’VE TO TRY AND NOT BE ABSENT AS I HAVE ALWAYS DONE. I HAVE NO FEELINGS OF LONELINESS DUE TO THE COMING SEPARATION WITH MY FRIENDS….YET. WELL NOT JUST YET. I DON’T KNOW WHEN IT’LL COME BUT MOST CERTAINLY NOT NOW. THAT’S JUST HOW I AM. I’LL REALIZE IT MORE WHEN AN INSTANCE COMES AND I NEED THEM THERE. WELL IT’S TRUE. YOU ONLY REALIZE A PERSON’S WORTH WHEN YOU’VE LOST THEM. BUT I HAVEN’T LOST THEM  I’M NOT THE TYPE TO MISS PEOPLE SO MUCH. LET’S JUST SAY I’M USED TO IT. I REALLY AM, GIVEN SOME CIRCUMSTANCES HAHAHA 

IT RAINED TO TODAY! WOOHOO! I’VE BEEN HOPING FOR IT, EVERYDAY. THE COLD BREEZE AND THE SMELL IN THE AIR REALLY REMINDS ME OF MY CHILDHOOD. LIKE THE TIME WHEN I’M NOT DOING ANYTHING BUT READ AND LOUNGE IN FRONT OF THE TV… I DON’T KNOW WHEN I’LL BE ABLE TO DO THAT. IT’S JUST NOT THE SAME ANYMORE.
I WATCHED NHK AND THEN I FELT FRUSTRATED LOLZ. AHHH WHAT A WASTE….