04.14.2010

(omma)

Going into a new school bothers me a lot these days. The air is so different from what I’m used to. I’ve never felt so lost before. Not even when I first started out my schooling, back in nursery. But of course a child wouldn’t be familiar with the feeling of intimidation. Is that it? Do I feel intimidated by these people? Well, I could say yes. But is it just me or do they feel the same way in return? Hell, I wouldn’t know just by seeing them pass by while I was waiting there. For an hour I sat on a bench and quietly saw people…young girls pass me by. They look different, far from those I’m used to seeing in my previous school. Some stared back at me for a few seconds. I tried to avoid eye contact as much as possible as I am now aware that most people aren’t used to that. And they might misinterpret me for glaring at them. But why do they still look at me like I’m gonna eat them? I sure didn’t look weird because my hair was tied back in a pony so they certainly didn’t see my weird haircut. I didn’t wear strange clothes either. Just a simple blouse and jeans. I didn’t even wear my boots since it was freakin’ hot. I’d just cause my self to suffer under the blazing sun. I even felt a bit stupid. It was quite embarrassing. The lady from the admissions office gave me instructions to go to the cashier before I get my acceptance letter and I ended up coming back to her three times. I was lost at first because the campus was so big and the room labels were confusing. The cashier’s office was further back and I couldn’t find it at first so I had to go back and ask the lady. So finally I found it and showed my receipt for the reservation fee. But the lady there assumed that I was already a college student enrolling for the next sem or something so she told me to do this and that. Still confused, I went back to the admissions office tell the lady that I had to photocopy the receipt and I need three forms ( I didn’t understand what they called it at the cashier). I am assuming that the lady from admissions probably thought I was stupid at this point and made me go back to the cashier and show both the receipt and notification letter. So I went and did as she said and finally someone from the cashier got what I meant. (sigh). I still had to photocopy the receipt and after I got the acceptance letter I just had to go to the clinic to schedule an appointment.

2 years ago I wanted to transfer to there to continue high school but I was told they only accepted transferees who are incoming second year students. Now I found out the tuition fee there actually costs 85,000 a year. Haha, so I wouldn’t really be able to transfer if I still wanted to go to college